Melbourne, Australia ran an absolutely excruciating lockdown.

This is from one of its many victims, courtesy of an email from Tom Woods dated 10/12/20.

Three months since i saw another human face besides [my partner’s]

7 months since [my partner] and I had a little break together in the form of going and having a coffee down the street 

Over a year since i last sat out in nature

Sitting staring at the wall for 2 hours, again.. unable to move 

Despair 

Horrible negative emotions virtually all day

Awake entire nights, distress

I cant think of anything to look forward to because i dont know when we will be allowed to do anything 

Just go for a drive, go to the forest

Just go somewhere together, far from all of this

We are not allowed

The police could enter our homes at any point and arrest us if we say the ‘wrong’ thing online

This doesnt feel human 

I don’t smile 

I dont laugh

I worked out the other day and felt nothing, no pain

Nothing would register as pain

I couldn’t feel anything 

I feel far away from myself 

Sometimes i forget how long the day has been going for

Does it matter?

You’re not allowed to leave? Even if family members are terminally ill? They could die before we are let out of Melbourne, got told it isnt a good enough reason to be let out of the state

Literally not allowed to move house

I think WA is letting Victorians in now but we cant get to the airport to fly out of here because the airport is more than 5ks from our house 

You arent allowed more than 5ks from your house

You arent allowed to buy a takeaway coffee and sit under a tree or on the ground anywhere that isnt your house 

Inhuman 

This isnt human

This isnt human

This isnt human

This isnt human

There is no empathy here

No price is too high

Suicide is not too great a price to pay 

Self harm is not too great a price to pay

Structural brain changes in large portions of the population is not too high a price to pay

Do you know what prolonged social isolation does to the brain?

We are made to feel it does not matter

Because all we are, are numbers

We are not people we are the masses
without a say

Without a time period to look forward to when we can hug again 

I am sharing my experience because you should know the truth

Sincerely

A faceless number in melbourne